Nearer, shorter

Goodness me, I'm soooo extreme exhuasted right now. I just feel so tired to study, normally when exam comes I would just sit at the table there studying non-stop. But I don't know how come I'm so slack this time round, something seems to distract me so much. N level is just 7days away. ): Really very scared! ):

Last night, I was on the phone with someone till 2am, and I was being woken up by my stupid neighbour early in the morning. And I can't go back to sleep anymore. Everytime the same thing happen, then I was very pissed by them, I thought of scolding them and throw eggs at them, seriously. I don't even care whether I have manner a not, they just keep on talking loudly. Urgh! Damn freaking irritating lah. And now I'm very sleepy&tired.

PS: My determination is to lose weight!

Will be looking forward to your letter (:
♥
missess

Up and down

Candid shot: I happened to take this photo when they started to throw things at her. And I heard a ''piak'' sound very loud, I wonder who's the one who threw the egg so hard at her. Haha!

Yesterday was Zoey's birthday, so I'm wishing 寿心婆 a Happy Sweet 16th birthday here. Yesterday was a long long day. Remedial ended 4.30pm and I think that I learn nothing, it was just a waste of time. But well, just becus' N level is coming very very soon. Gotten home as soon as I finished my remedial, showered and had a few mouthful of dinner before headed to amk to meet up with Yikai, Alvin and brother. Then, we took 88 to Pasir Ris together cus Zoey was holding a BBQ there. In the beginning, I felt abit weird becus I dont know her friends except for a few peirceans there. I hope Zoey enjoyed herself last night at Pasir Ris and enjoy the flour, eggs, chilli sauce, tomato sauce, shower gel and etc etc... Haha!

I love the bee hoon Zoey's grandma cooked, cus' it was delicious (: And many people felt that the otah were sour. Even i think so too, hahaha! The otah was burning in my stomach, I could felt that it's very hot. xD We intended to leave at around 10pm but we left there at 11.30pm. So back home with Yikai, Alvin, brother, Guo Jie, Edwin and his gf. Guojie left to take cab cus he had a headache. I felt so tired and sleepy last night ): And my foot is full of blister D:

Incredible!

I'm down with a flu due to the burning of incense paper by people during the 7th month (Sorry, no offence). And i guess i breathe in too much. Feeling so sick and horrible ): I can't even breathe properly when I'm sleeping!

Pimples are popping out from my face due to lack of sleep,I bet. Is not that I don't want to sleep, it's just that I couldn't sleep. I don't know what's the thing which bother me so much either. D:

I also dreamed that the whole class passed N level and promoted to sec 5 except for a few of them. But do you know that people said that the dream is opposite of real life? Which mean maybe I'm going to fail my N level. Cus' English is the main subject as well as Maths. But what I'm worried about is my English. I'm really afraid that I can't pass my English and ended up in ITE!!! I have been thinking of this almost every single day and making myself so worried.

What's more I have no idea how to start studying. Urgh!

This is it, so screwed.

This morning I dreamed of so many weird stuff, especially some ghostly stuff. It was damn gross and scary. I wonder if I'm too stress? I'm feeling so restless and lazy Today. Feel so so so (x1000) tired. I wanted to study but I'm too lazy to touch my book, I stared in the daze for hours, then again i lied on my bed. Don't know what I'm thinking as well. I have no idea who to look for. Feel like crying not becus I'm lonely, just that maybe I can't explain myself too. Life is like so meaningless, or in fact is like no life at all. I didn't eat well and I've got no appetite at all, and for now I need a shoulder to lean on. ): Suddenly miss someone so much, hope M is doing fine inside...

'' 感觉好累好累啊！''

Work is stress, really stress. Don't feel like talking about it, just starting to dislike this job. The most get fired or quit and look for another job. On Sunday morning, parents and brother went to malaysia. My sister stayed, cus I have to work. Actually Yesterday I don't have to go to work, but I didn't know. Tsk! At around 9 plus, Yamin and I waited for our dinner to be cooked then bus home together. He shared with me about his past life stories which I feel that it's very bad..

On Saturday, my parents and my sister came over to my work place to have their dinner at thai express. I've got the chance to serve them. hea... They waited for me to be dismissed from work then fetch me home again. By then I'm already dead beat!

On friday, I went for lunch together with Jiayi and Ellaine at TP's pizzahut. Was having fun when we were eating, I don't know what the hell they are laughing at when we were already late for remedial and they can still joke. It was raining and we were all drain, what's more it was held in the AVA. That's was freezingly cold. After remedial, I went home to get changed and headed to far east to meet up with Penghong. We both bought a pair of flats, cus it is cheap at buying two pairs so i helped to share her 'burden'. Go out with her confirm spend money.hah! We saw quite a number of things that we actually wanted to buy but in the end we didnt. We then walked to ion, wisma, cineleisure and to Plaze Sing. At 10 pm, we bused home together by 162. We chatted until the end of the whole journey. This maybe the last time we meet up before we do not have the time for each other, cus I will be working and she maybe busy with her stuffs or something.

More photos soon will be uploaded.

Pull through

Why isit that when I'm about to forget you, something unexpected always come together?

I promised that this is the last time I'm crying for you.

-= End It Here=-

Out of my life.

Yesterday my parents drove me to work in the afternoon and fetch me back from work too. While waiting for me, they had their dinner there too. Also, can say that yesterday was a fun ones though it was busy. Slowly i get used to the environment there and with the staffs... During lunch time was the funniest part, the chefs damn cute lah. I was laughing and quite socialise with them.. But so sad to say that they are leaving to India soon. Urgh! I made mistake alot of time and it was like alamak?

Today is bad, after school i rushed back home to get changed and headed to bank with my mum to get something done, then again Fadhad(supervisor) rush me to the workplace to hand them over something, I'm like rushing here and there and i can't even have the time to catch my breath.. The boss came too, he has a serious look, he is huge.. He looks scary, but seems to be friendly.. He shook my hand and welcome me. heehee...

I hate it the way just now was, my first reaction was to hit the wall, but I'm totally perfectly fine now (:

It's fine to cry sometimes.

It's fine to be wildful sometimes.

It's fine to be playful sometimes.

It's fine to be despair sometimes.

It's fine to go against the world.

It's fine to think negetively sometimes.

It's fine with a reason not to smile.

But somethings don't go the way you want it to be.

And after what happened today, I believe that tomorrow will be a better ones(:

Gotta stay strong as ever!

Invisible

Yesterday was my first day of work, everyone was very busy. I learned some basic things too (: Was damn tiring Yesterday ): Suddenly dont feel like working anymore :X The people there are quite friendly, and the sister ah may very cute. Haha! I was so careless that i actually toppled the soup, lucky the soup is warmth. The chef didn't scold me, instead he still ask me did the soup burn your hand? I need someone to help me massage my leg, cus it's aching ): I shouldn't choose sat and sun cus is the busier days of the week. Goodness me, they don't know how to pronoun my name at all. What's more got the malay guy called yamin, and when the supervisor call either one of us, we will misunderstood ourselve and it's like so confusing. The staffs there are all malay,indian and thai expect for 3 chinese. Most of the waiter there are new, they work only less than one month.

I know next, is not easy for me already. Have to remember alot of things, the menu, the name of the food and beverages. Somemore when the supervisor talk to me, i dont even know what he is talking and in fact others too, and I'm trying to catch their words. Handling the customer is the worst part when they want to order something.. I was so busy that i did not have the time to drink water and my throat was freaking dry..

i know that my mum is very worried about me cus' she afraid that i have to wait for very long to eat my dinner, due to my gastric problem.

I've got so many things i want to blog about, but when blogging i forgot what to blog. tsk.

Hush,

Something affected my mood today,I'm pissed.
Just don't understand why there is someone like this.

ps: Bring me somewhere else please.

Lost?

I'm feeling superb exhuasted these few days. Frankly, Yesterday English paper was difficult. I heard people said that it's easy, it's easy, but it wasn't easy at all. Not only i felt that way, even the other 4As pupils felt that it was difficult too. I panicked when I can't think of what to write. Comprehension is like whatthehell?! I really scared that I can't pass my English and will end up in ITE next year. D: good grief!

After paper, i went to meet Ellaine. We headed to TP to see my supervisor regarding about my job. Was quite happy that I am able to get that job,cus I'm lazy to look for job after my N level. In addition, I also have to spend time looking for job. After that, Ellaine had her lunch at kopitiam then we bused 166 down to bugis. Shop for some stuffs, I found the watch i used to have, I search for the watch shop after shop. But it's not the colour i wanted ): Ms Wong took my purple watch and haven't return me yet! Since last year hur? Urgh.

We do not have enough time to shop Yesterday cus we met up very late. But i can say it was a fun one (: We then headed to Clarke Quay. Standard one. HAHA! we had our small dinner at Long John again then proceeded to buy our favourite melon ice-cream. hehehehe! Hang around there for about 2hours then bused home (:

There is Maths Mock Exam today, I don't intend to attend this session becus' I was feeling very very sick this morning and wasn't feeling so well due to my tireness. Stupid school, why can't they attempt it during school days and not holidays? Quite a number of them did not turn up today and some of them left after Paper 1.

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I believe that I'll overcome what I've gone thru' over the months- is to forget.
>

♥

Yes, i do!

I couldn't sleep last night, i bet because I'm worried and nervous for my today's SS paper. I was so awake last night, trying to listen to music to get myself asleep. Finally, i fallen asleep roughly around 1am plus. Then, i was a bit tired to wake up this morning. But i still force myself to wake up at 9.30am to continue studying and practise writing my Essay until around 1.15. My heart beats since i woke up till i enter the examination hall,and even during the exam. I am really very nervous, it's worst than prelim though it was held the in hall too. I took 20mins to finish up my Essay, isn't it amazing? And you can see that my hand writing sucks, haha! I don't really understand the source based of what the cartoonist is talking about so i just write what i can think of. And there goes my source based. I did not cross-refer, I afraid that i won't score well. But I had the 4 skills koktiong taught me last Sunday. After the paper, i heaved a sigh of relief. Hope I'm able to do well, pleaseeeeeee.

But still, thanks so much people for the wishing (:
Peng, i try to pass you the disc as soon as possible, hehehehe!

P.S: And now i have a big headache ):

Singaporeans speck Singlish

Today suppose to meet koktiong awhile to get help from him for my source based,but then he tells me that he meeeting his friends so went to meet friends around 2plus at TP to study. Koktiong and i just happened to be in the same bus and I wasn't aware of that until he told me. So i went to study with Jordan, bai yong, koktiong, lowell and hakim and starbuck. The purpose of today's study session was to get koktiong with my souce based, cus' I'm suck at that. I'm quite happy working with Jordan, thanks for the notes too (: I find Sri Lanka and Northern Ireland very difficult to study, I feel that giving up that chapter but I afraid that it would come out. Urgh, say good luck to me people.

Then back home at 7pm. I'm going to start studying again, really need to chiong. One more day to go, hope by then i can get everything in my head. I pray that those chapters i studied would come out. All the best to the 4As for tmr's MT paper (:

My heart sank because of you...

Voluntary work (:

Went to meet Penghong after my remedial today at around 4plus at drive thru' mac to study, I don't know how long we didn't meet up already but still feel very good, I think this is the one and only time we really sit down and study cus' usually we were chit chatting and gossip about stuffs. haha! Still, we got a lot of things to talk and share, without fail. I manage to memorise my Diplomacy and Deterrence as well as my heathcare, last one to go is Sri lanka (: Woah! I'm a bit nervous for my N's though people say it's easy. I must say that i really spend alot alot of time on memorising SS, I started memorising since weeks ago.

Well, dinner with her at subway. After that, we went to do some shopping. She pulled me into this shop; MUY MUY. The clothings are cheap okays, and i can't resist myself from buying it. I know i very sua gu,but becus it's cheap! Thanks to her,spend money again. Haha! Heys, next time we go out, we wear that shirt tgt. Lols.

Money money faster come to me so that I can spend my money lavishly on shopping. heeeees :D I've got alot of things i want to buy, haha! woot.

I feel like doing voluntary work at oversea to help with the less fortunate people, especially at thailand. cus' i find the kids there very cute and enjoyable, they are very friendly too. I can get to know more about their living condition and the way they live their life. I just want to help them so much and give them the best, if I'm given the chance, definitely i won't miss this chance because i really really want to help them and play with them (: I really love thailand people very much, they are just way too friendly and nice ♥

♥

Wont you tell me why?

Motivation to the next hurdle.
(Dont wish to talk about my result)

I really like the way we are now, but why do I feel that way? fcuking shit.

Time is cruel!

Time is running out guys, 4 more days to the actual N level. Really gonna concentrate during these 4days,especially on SS and English. Tomorrow will be having Chinese paper with the Sec 4Es and 5As. It's time to get the ball rolling, and I'm going to do my revision already. Byez!
''Fish'', I'm still using my comp here!

Looking a few years back, I felt that I'm so childish and stupid that somethings i shouldn't be crying over for. Especially somethings which dont worth me crying over for. Now that i've grown up,i feel that it's not worth it at all. If i say that I've grown up now and i can't say that I've fully reach that stage of maturity yet.I'm still growing and experirencing different kinds of things as i move on, seeing different kinds of things around me, With those words people telling me, they made me come to a sense of the fact and this is how life is. The stories that he told me which inspired me.

Sometimes i dont see a point why does people get so sad over relationship, and that's include myself too. It always end up the same. And no matter how emo or how badly you cry, you can't make any changes either. So what if you go back, the relationship still doesn't bear fruits, unless you both are really in love otherwise it's useless. So why are you torturing yourself, making yourself so miserable? Perhaps just enjoy the process of it and not getting so devoted to it or you will end up getting hurt. Staying as friend make both parties the best, and i think it's the best choice though people say that the feeling won't be the same,but i feel that it is worst when you guys are not together anymore and feel weird talking or facing each other or don't even know what to talk. This happen most of the time, do you agree with me? Also,not trying to say that you can't fall in love, is just that don't put in so much or you will end up getting hurt. So it depend on individual's thinking too (:

Somtimes both parties must agree with each other and not just you say so and that he/she must agree with you. Otherwise i dont see any point carry on talking.

Sorry for being so random..

Life is never perfect!

Yesterday i went to visit the doctor,I was crying in pain and my eyes turned swollen. I didn't know that actually there's alot of people who are falling sick. There were many people visiting the clinic last night, i waited so long to be my turn. Mum kept nagging at me~

It was having a heavy downpour this afternoon and i was so wet and feeling so cold, went to jasper's house to bake cookies together with Calvin,Jasper and Pamela. But something happened so everything didn't went smoothly but still manage to get the cookies done. Calvin spent hours to solve the problem but just so... hmmm. Well, hope that the relationship between Pamela and her family will be alright(: Suppose to study but also didn't manage to study too. I wasted my day as well as Yesterday cus i wasn't feeling so well. Then walked to bus stop with Calvin, he was being so embarrassing in the bus delibrately talking so loudly!!


*Are you able to read my mind?*