Sucks big time

Today during band I was so freaking nervous plus it was so cold until I was shivering. Playing music should be relax,but I don't know why I seemed to be so scared and nervous. Especially when playing the oboe parts (Whistle while you work).

I realised it is not easy to be a mother, I washed all the clothes just now. I hate to wash Jeans becus' it's so hard to twist it dry..Gonna pack my room later on (:

I don't understand why people can enjoy their work so much yet I can't. Each time I shed tears, it's always Ah luen who made me laugh.

PS:Should I resign?